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16th-Sep-2007 08:46 pm
Misc - sun in branch
Today has been...well, a little more productive.  

I've come to the conclusion that even though it's rather early in the fall, my seasonal affective disorder kicked in this week.  It's kind of discouraging, because last year I managed to fight it off until January.  But, let's look at the symptoms: feelings of depression (check), lethargy (check), fatigue (check), cravings for sweets and starches (check), headaches (check), sleep problems (check) and irritability (check).  At first I thought it might be the large amounts of Benadryl I've been taking, but that would only explain the lethargy.  I'm just having this feeling that can only be described as apathy: I suddenly just don't care about anything.  Which is very very bad, because I have a number of things I need to care about.  I've done this every fall since I moved north, and I should be prepared for it by now, but it's still irritating.

But today, I did at least manage to stay ambulatory long enough to clean the bathroom, do multiple loads of laundry and dishes, and sort through a big pile of papers and mail.  I also spent a lot of time cleaning up cat pee I discovered at the end of the hallway.  Let me explain that this is a hallway to nowhere: it leads to a tiny balcony that I use only to shake rugs off of, once or twice a month (in the months where there isn't snow piled up on it).  The Mafia could set up a money-laundering operation and I'd have no idea what was going on back there, which is how the cat pee managed to go unnoticed and unsmelled.  I'm hoping it was just some sort of weird attention-seeking behavior.  I got this cat specifically because he didn't like a lot of attention, but in the last year or so, as he's entered middle age, he's suddenly asking to be petted and cuddled and held, and gets upset if I don't shower love upon him.  Hopefully it was indeed nothing but him being angry with me at some point, because I don't want to have to install a litter box on every level of the house.

Here's how out of it I am: I just got a text message from a friend, and I had no clue what she was talking about.  I had to go back and read the last message I'd sent her in order to figure out what she meant.  I think I had something else I was going to talk about, but my brain is obviously shutting down for the evening, so...okay.

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17th-Sep-2007 02:41 am (UTC)
The horrible thing is, it's been sunny up here!!! But what made me realize it's probably SAD is that I realized I was thinking multiple times a day about how much shorter the days were, and how sad it was that I needed to turn my lights on by 7 pm in order to see to read.

But instead of heating up pizza, I just made myself cut up a nice bowl of fruit for a snack. And man...this bowl of fruit has cheered me up immensely. It's a peach, a kiwi and a pear, and I swear it is the most attractive bowl of fruit I've ever seen. It's just so bright and happy, I can hardly stand to eat it because then I won't be able to look at it anymore. I almost took a picture of it.

Clearly, I have now lost my damn mind.
17th-Sep-2007 05:23 am (UTC)
It's just so bright and happy, I can hardly stand to eat it because then I won't be able to look at it anymore. I almost took a picture of it.

Clearly, I have now lost my damn mind.

Ha! I know what you mean, though, as far as finding immense amounts of pleasure from things that really don't mean anything. I always get inordinately happy when I have a pencil that is sharpened just perfectly.

And I'm sorry your SAD is bringing you down so much, but hopefully my icon will cheer you up. :P
17th-Sep-2007 03:47 pm (UTC)
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18th-Sep-2007 07:41 pm (UTC)
No. I should have. If they have any peaches left when I get back from my trip, though, I'm buying more, and might make an artistic arrangement in my bowl. ;0)
17th-Sep-2007 03:13 am (UTC)
Well that sucks about your SAD but at least you were productive.

I agree that the cat may have UTI. You should get it checked out.
17th-Sep-2007 03:45 pm (UTC)
Thanks. And believe me--I'm keeping an eye on the cat. He's had a history of UTIs but every other time he's had one, he's peed in the middle of the floor--he attempts to run for the litter box but can never make it more than a few feet from where he was sitting--and he hisses and cries in pain for about 10 minutes after he's done peeing. He hasn't done either of those things, so I'm hoping it was just acting out. He's got a long history of that, too.
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