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27th-Oct-2007 11:40 am
404 - not social

I'm trying to decide what to do tonight.  I was invited to a Hallowe'en party that friends-of-friends are having, and I was assured that they are fun people, but that I Have To Wear A Costume.  I said I would go.  But.

I don't really like wearing costumes, plus I would have to make an otherwise unneeded trip to several stores, which makes me feel like I'm wasting a good chunk of the afternoon.  I am having cramps and my face and neck have broken out nastily. I'm having to reinstall the OS on the almost-brand-new computer in a last-ditch effort to keep from taking it in to a professional for repairs.  Euchre last night, which is usually fun, sucked.  I have about 6 unfinished projects staring me in the face, plus a list of new ones I keep saying I want to start "when I have the time".  And there are a half-dozen other things pulling on my brain, which, combined with the rest, means I'm in a bad bad mood.  And I don't deal well with a big room full of strangers even when I'm in a good mood.  I've spent more time this morning dreading going to the party than doing anything else on my list of projects and things to do.

The problem is, I know that sometimes I dread going to things, and instead of sitting in the corner counting the minutes till I can go, I do actually meet someone who is quite fun to talk to.  But that's only sometimes: other times I get there, meet everyone and end up sitting quietly in a chair counting the minutes till my friends are ready to leave.  I keep wavering between texting S and saying, "You don't want me to come, I'll just be a bitch", and putting on shoes to get the shopping over with.

I just feel an increasing need for one weekend where I do not do anything, I do not go anywhere, I just sit down and mindlessly game for 48 hours with no other human beings in proximity.  I've been jonesing for Sim City--I realized last week I haven't even installed it on the new desktop, which means I haven't played since March--and I had a blast playing Kingdom of Loathing but haven't even logged in in weeks, because my brain screams at me that I have too many other things to do to be playing games.  Maybe if I promise to do that next weekend, no matter what people try to get me to do, maybe my mood will improve enough that I can actually concentrate on something this afternoon.

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27th-Oct-2007 06:52 pm (UTC)
Eh. I was preemptively texted and asked what time I want to be picked up. Their house is literally 10 blocks away. So I went to Walgreen's and bought a vampire wig and some blood makeup. Plus I'm watching Moonlight right now and...it's improving my mood.

(Of course, that's a frightening statement right there: this week's Moonlight is engaging and entertaining me more than this week's Heroes did.)
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27th-Oct-2007 08:46 pm (UTC)
It's...not as bad as it used to be. LOL It was a show that had a pilot shot and then was recast at the last minute. It's about a vampire PI. It's really improved from the first few eps! And yeah...I thought Heroes was going OK, but then this week I was bored to tears. Also I've given in and read a few spoilers this week, and I hated ALL OF THEM. So I'm very pessimistic on Heroes right now. On the other hand, I figured Moonlight would have been cancelled two weeks ago, but instead CBS has ordered more episodes of it. I giggled quite a lot at it this week (and it was stuff that was supposed to be funny).
27th-Oct-2007 09:02 pm (UTC)
Hey...have you seen these particular pics before? They really should have had Eden have long hair all along. For some reason, I like her much, much better with long hair.
27th-Oct-2007 07:05 pm (UTC)
Eh, I think you should go. It's Halloween! Last year i didn't get to do jackshit for halloween because I had a paper due and it was MISERABLE. I think if you have the opportunity to do something, you should do it! You can laze next week.

PS what is your costume? Just the wig and the blood, or is there a clever name for it all?
(That's not a criticism-- I'm being Claire, which took absolutely sero creativity, so.)
27th-Oct-2007 07:46 pm (UTC)
I'm in a better mood now that I've watched Moonlight. I'm actually starting to like it. Perhaps I am just drinking Jason Dohring's Kool-Aid?

I have a pair of black glasses--not nearly as big or sexy as ZQ's grampa glasses, but still black--and I'm going to wear a slinky burnout velvet top and slinky shiny skirt, and carry a couple of books like "The Encyclopedia of Bloodletters and Badmen", and be a vampire librarian. YES I AM AWARE THAT IT IS LAME BUT ASIDE FROM THE WIG AND MAKEUP, I DIDN'T HAVE TO SPEND ANY MONEY ON IT. I wanted to get one of those ridicuous chain thingys that people wear on their glasses so that they can hang then around their neck, but I couldn't find any and didn't want to drive all over town.

Uh oh. I was just texted and asked if I have a camera that can be used tonight. This should be interesting, considering that my friends NEVER TAKE PICTURES.
27th-Oct-2007 07:52 pm (UTC)
Yeah, but you can bet nobody else there will have had the same idea, AMIRITE?

Also, your friends never take pictures? ahhahahhaa you should hang around me more often. I take pictures of FUCKING EVERYTHING, I am like a facebook superstar for serious.

PS The sweatshirt in your icon is making me really happy.

PPS I just tried on my cheerleader dress and the skirt is REALLY SHORT so I've decided to TOTALLY MUTILATE one leg with fake blood. Ohman ohman I am having wayyyy too much fun with this.
27th-Oct-2007 08:49 pm (UTC)
I love that sweatshirt. It is so dorky. In fact I read a review of some movie that I don't even remember the title for, because I was looking at the picture of the main characters and all I could think was "OMG that guy is wearing ZQ's bright green zip-up sweatshirt!"

Mutilation is good!!!!
27th-Oct-2007 09:23 pm (UTC)
SOMEBODY SHOULD TOTALLY MAKE A SYLAR VIDEO TO THE SONG 'WAVE OF MUTILATION' BY THE PIXIES!
I was actually listening to that song on the bus like 10min ago and thinking about this..... but then I forgot about it.... and now you reminded me again!

I... yeah, okay.
27th-Oct-2007 07:07 pm (UTC)
I know exactly what you are talking about... on all fronts. Sometimes, even when I don't have anything better to do, I prefer to just stay in the house and do nothing. But, when you factor in not only things that have to be done but things that you don't need, but want to do... well, that makes it even worse. Though, in my case, Having To Wear A Costume is pretty much a deal-breaker. And by that, I mean I Will Not Wear A Costume.

Of course, it could very well turn out to be a good time all around, and then it won't even matter. This is where the dilemma lies. Whatever you decide to do, I hope you have fun with it, because that's really the only part that matters.

27th-Oct-2007 07:09 pm (UTC)
Look! In the time I took to (slowly) post, it has already been decided! Disregard my earlier ramblings! As far as the costume goes, you can never go wrong with "vampire," I am pretty sure of that.
27th-Oct-2007 07:50 pm (UTC)
A vampire librarian, actually. Because I am nothing if not nerdy. One might argue that I am far too freaking big to be walking around in slinky clothing, but hey...it never hurts to show the cleavage! Hopefully I'll have any cute geeky guys eating out of my...hands. (What did you think I was going to say?)
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