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Self-analysis, or making excuses? 
13th-Jul-2007 10:21 am
Detail of 'Yuuwaku' by Audrey Kawasaki
You know, I think I've finally figured out why I've been writing fics for Heroes.  I'd managed to make it out of my teens and 20s without ever taking part in a fandom that way, and congratulated myself on that.  You know--"I may be a huge dork, but there are people out there who are even dorkier than me! Go make fun of THEM instead!"  However, I started reading fics that were recommended by people at TWoP whose opinions I trust, and then that started giving me ideas that would not stop circulating in my brain until I wrote them down, and then I gave in to the call from the dark side to put them online where everyone can see what a freak I've become.  And I thought...when did I become this person?  I was at least this obsessed with the first season of Veronica Mars, but I didn't write fan fiction about it.

The thing is, though, this year I've been going to a writing group on Saturday mornings.  We write for short, set periods and we all start with the same prompt: a sentence, usually randomly chosen from a book.  (My recent contributions included sentences from "Alexei Sayle's Great Bus Journeys of The World" and "The Thackery T. Lambshead Pocket Guide to Eccentric and Discredited Diseases".)  Some people think that sounds boring, or that it's "forcing" you into writing something that "isn't really you".  But I've quite enjoyed it.  After the timer goes off, we usually read back what we've written, and it's fascinating to see how 6 people can take the same sentence and use it to create 6 completely different pieces--a poem, a rant about the government, a wistful memory from childhood, a satire with really inappropriate humor.  Because I would never have started with that particular sentence on my own, I end up going to places I never would have found on my own, and I've actually written several things that I'm developing into full stories.

My point: since February 3rd, I've been conditioning myself to take a prompt, which provides me with some structure and background information, and add on to it with an original idea.  

The canon events in Heroes, along with the relationship conventions that have been established in the Mylar fic community, provide me with some structure and background information that are ready to be added on to with an original idea.

Of course, it's always possible that this is just a justification that I've come up with so that I can sleep at night.

ETA: Of course, this still doesn't explain why I'm enjoying writing them so much.  Oh well.  Especially since this is something I always said I would never, ever, ever do.  Because I couldn't possibly enjoy it.  (I'm starting to kind of sound like Mohinder, aren't I?)
13th-Jul-2007 09:30 pm (UTC)
Self-analysis, or making excuses?

I'm starting to kind of sound like Mohinder, aren't I?
It's destiny.
13th-Jul-2007 09:50 pm (UTC)
It's kind of like...I always said I would not hover over kids and scold them like my mom did with me. And then one day, I realize I'm yelling at my cousins for chasing a ball into the street because THEY COULD HAVE BEEN RUN OVER AND KILLED, and I think, hey, that's not hovering...they could have been run over and killed! Someone's got to watch out for them!

So...I always thought fanfic was too goofy, and yet here I am checking mylar_fic twice a day. And commenting on almost everything I read. And enjoying it. (Admittedly, I'm hiding the fact that I'm doing it from several of my RL friends...)
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